These past three weeks have been an emotional roller coaster. lets start with the good parts :) three weeks ago we finally, after 4 years got our swamp fixed so it is now a pool! I got my braces off after wearing them for almost two years! I helped with pre-k crafts for VBS at church. and I went to camp with a girlfriend from church and conquered many fears and did things that I never thought I could do! sadly for every good story there is a bad part. that would consist of being away from home so much, not being able to see my sweet puppy, Annie, and my sister Rhoda going back home to Ghana. on top of that I'm trying to deal with some internal battles involving relationships with people and with God.
hopefully you're not bored yet..this is where it should get interesting. I want to talk a little bit about camp. first of all, Twin Lakes this year was my first ever camp experience. yes, my parents are mean, I know :) haha, just kidding. I never really had the desire before this year to go to a camp. it seemed like a stupid idea. why waste the money on a camp where all you do is listen to someone you don't know talk and follow a bunch of crazy rules and a schedule. it sounded like a week long school session that you had to pay for. thankfully my mindset on the matter changed. God got ahold of my heart and made me realize that this could be one of the best decisions I have ever made. now you may be thinking, it's one week of camp. what could you possibly learn in one week that could change your life so much? I wouldn't really say my life was drastically changed, because it wasnt and I'm not afraid to admit it, but I did make decisions and goals that will change my future and I also stepped out of my comfort zone quite often, but I'll get to that later. some of the decisions and goals that I made are to be a three year college graduate, to be more open to what God has for me and my future, to focus more on being friends with people first before I jump into a deep reltionship with them (whether it be friendship where I share all of my secrets and thoughts or a dating relationship) I have been through the negative and the positive in both of these situations, neither is easy, and also to be more open and willing to share my faith with people. I'm eager to see where I end up with these goals and decisions. I hope I follow through with them, but only God knows my future. I can only set goals and pray that it is Gods will for them to happen. now to stepping out of my comfort zone. I shared my testimony with my cabin which was a really hard thing for me to do. I don't feel like my testimony is special at all therefore it's not worth sharing. that's always my mindset, but I need to realize that people care about my life and how I've gotten to where I am today. I also shared alot of my opinions with the group when it came to events that we did throughout the week. though I wasn't always heard, I tried to voice my opinions which is something I struggle with and I also tried to stick my neck out for those who were being ignored by some of the people. I initiated things such as ways to complete tasks and going first on the high ropes course. all in all camp showed me a lot of new things, and that doesn't even include chapel. I'll elaborate on that some other time. I hope this didn't bore you to death. feel free to comment and tell me how I can improve in any way you see necessary. whether it be in my writing, my social life, my walk with God, relationships or whatever. thanks for taking the time to read this!
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